3am.
3am. I lie completely still — gripping the covers, fists tight, tension in my neck and jaw, eyes wide open. Adrenaline rushes through me; I feel connected to every fizzing molecule.
I thought I’d already done the hard work of life — the heartbreaks. I figured I’d earned a rest from self-discovery. But here I am, at 52, learning more about myself in my coffin of anger.
Simon. I’m so cross with you.
My brother died last year, age 52, of alcoholism. The trauma is hard to bear.
My beloved nephew — Simon’s son — has lost his dad. 🥹 That child has a right to know his father’s people.
So here I am, awake at 3am, my mind spinning with angry grief.
I know I’m not alone. We all have those moments of 3am anxiety, right?
I’ve realised my deep emotions don’t like the light; they wake me up, tormenting me. My anger is like a coat — heavy and wet from a storm — I long to hang it up to dry.
Anger disguises itself as control, silence, self-criticism. I bury it, but it rises again — in my words, reactions, the strain on my body.
Listen. Learn.
So I listen. And in that quiet, resilient space.
If you’re awake at 3am, buzzing with anger or grief, don’t rush to silence it.
Listen. Let it move through you.
We can use that energy to grow stronger — not in muscle, but in mindset. When we stop running and really listen, there’s power there.
I’ve decided to use that power to
Love more fiercely.
Feel more connected to my body.
Growth doesn’t happen in the light. It happens in the lonely, uncomfortable dark at 3am — the place we become who we’re meant to be.
Let’s turn anger into energy for good.
Are you a 3-amer? How do you cope?
Alexandra xx
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In 2023, I did something that scared the absolute life out of me — I self-published my own boudoir photography book.
In 2023, I did something that scared the absolute life out of me —
I self-published my own boudoir photography book.
To this day, it’s the work I’m most proud of.
But I’ve never really shared what it actually meant to make it happen — or how much it changed me.
At the time, I had zero confidence in my career. Everything felt uncertain.
After Covid — and a lot of personal change — my creative path had taken a complete handbrake turn.
I needed to pause, to reflect, to figure out where I’d come from and what my art had become.
That reflection turned into ‘The Queen of Boudoir’.
Launch day.
I opened the first box of books from the printer with shaking hands… and cried.
Happy tears. Grateful tears. Relief. Pride.
Because I knew exactly what it had cost me to get there.
Years, decades of work.
Months of 5 a.m. starts.
Thousands of photo edits.
Laying out the entire book myself — in design software I’d never touched before.
And then there was navigating Amazon’s publishing hurdles for a global eBook — a tedious, stressful nightmare that nearly broke me! 😅
But I was determined, because I had a dream.
Looking back now, I’m proud for taking that wild, terrifying leap of faith —
for believing so fiercely in something no one else could see yet.
‘THE QUEEN OF BOUDOIR’ changed everything for me.
It wasn’t just a creative project.
It gave me something far more powerful:
Confidence.
Confidence to stand on my own as an independent artist.
No publisher. No gallery. No middlemen.
Just me — connecting directly with my tribe.
If you’re an artist feeling disheartened right now, please hear me:
We are living in a time where you have the power.
You don’t need permission.
You can build your own audience, your own path, your own legacy.
Take risks on yourself.
They do pay off.
📣Friends, I only have 8 printed copies of The Queen of Boudoir left.
Once they’re gone — that’s it. No reprints.
If you’d like one of the final signed copies (UK only) 💌
👉 DM me now — first come, first served.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for supporting me & believing in my art.
Alexandra xx
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✨ Today’s boudoir photoshoot was extra special — it was for the lovely Jo, who came in to celebrate her birthday (+1)! 🎉 Because Jo spends so much of her life outdoors, she wanted to bring that connection with nature into her shoot — and I absolutely loved that idea.
✨ Today’s boudoir photoshoot was extra special — it was for the lovely Jo, who came in to celebrate her birthday (+1)! 🎉
Because Jo spends so much of her life outdoors, she wanted to bring that connection with nature into her shoot — and I absolutely loved that idea. 🌿
She arrived with the most beautiful collection of tree branches, ferns, leaves, and berries, and together we transformed them into the perfect accessories for her portraits. I guided her through a series of poses, using the natural textures and shapes to frame her in the most artistic, feminine way. The result? A collection of intimate, creative portraits that feel wild, grounded, and completely unique to Jo.
We laughed, experimented, and made magic together — that’s what I love most about these sessions. Every shoot becomes a collaboration, a celebration, and a memory in itself. 💫
As always, I never share private client work, but if you’d like to see the style of images we create at FYEO, you can view my portfolio or download the free Boudoir Photoshoot Lookbook via the website (link in bio).
Alexandra xx
#fyeoportraits #marlow #boudoir #boudoirphotography #boudoirshoot #fyeo #birthdayphotoshoot #empoweredwomen #selflove #portraitphotography #bodyconfidence
✨ This is not just a photoshoot — it’s a revelation.
✨ This is not just a photoshoot — it’s a revelation. ✨
My boudoir sessions are designed to do more than capture your beauty — they’re here to remind you of who you are. Every curve, every glance, every laugh that slips out between poses… it’s all you — raw, radiant, and real.
When you step into my studio, you’re stepping into an immersive creative experience.
💫 The lighting, the music, the mood — every detail is crafted to make you feel comfortable, confident, and completely seen.
💫 It’s not about perfection. It’s about presence — owning your story, your energy, your body exactly as it is today.
Together, we create art that reflects your strength, softness, and sensuality. You’ll walk away not just with breathtaking images, but with a shift in how you see yourself.
Because you deserve to feel powerful in your own skin.
You deserve to celebrate the version of you that exists right now — unapologetically.
📸 Whether this is for you, for a partner, or simply because you’re ready to reconnect with your confidence — your boudoir experience with me will change the way you see yourself forever.
✨ You are art. Let’s capture that. ✨
DM me to begin your transformation. 💌
Alexandra xx
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#marlow #fyeoportraits
🎬Backstage and after photos from a boudoir shoot… Just me and Nadine posing! One of the most common things I hear before a session is, ‘I have no idea how to pose! And every time, I smile — because that’s exactly where my job begins.
🎬Backstage and after photos from a boudoir shoot… Just me and Nadine posing!
One of the most common things I hear before a session is, ‘I have no idea how to pose!
And every time, I smile — because that’s exactly where my job begins.
During your boudoir session, you’ll never be left wondering what to do next. I guide you through every single pose — from the subtle tilt of your chin, to the way your fingertips rest, to how your breath moves through your body. Every detail matters, and I’m there to shape it with you.
My direction isn’t about perfection — it’s about flow, emotion, and connection. I’ll show you how to create lines with your body, how to soften into your curves, how to let the light trace over your skin in a way that feels like art. You don’t need experience in front of the camera — you just need to show up and trust the process.
Every person I photograph says the same thing: ‘I thought I’d feel awkward, but I felt completely guided and safe.’
That’s exactly the energy I want for you — a space where you can let go, express yourself fully, and rediscover the beauty of your own form.
I’ll direct, pose, and refine every shot — but the magic is all you. The way you move, the way you feel, the way you exist in that moment. I’m simply there to translate that into art.
So yes — I’ll tell you exactly what to do.
But I’ll also help you see yourself in a way you never have before. ✨
Have you booked your session yet? My last few 2025 shoots are selling fast.
Alexandra xx
#fyeoportraits #boudoir
#boudoirphotographer #artisticboudoir #bodyscape #empowermentphotography #fineartnude #bodypositivity #sensualart #boudoirsession #poseguide #feminineenergy #selflovejourney #bodyconfidence”
At work not working, having fun! Sue and I during a promotional shoot to celebrate my 20th year as a boudoir photographer.
At work not working, having fun! Sue and I during a promotional shoot to celebrate my 20th year as a boudoir photographer. 📸⭐️ #boudoirphotographer #marlow #fyeoportraits
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ ✨ Maternity Boudoir Magic ✨ There’s something incredibly powerful and beautiful about celebrating your body during pregnancy — the softness, the strength, the transformation.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ ✨ Maternity Boudoir Magic ✨
There’s something incredibly powerful and beautiful about celebrating your body during pregnancy — the softness, the strength, the transformation. 🌸
A maternity boudoir session is about embracing this fleeting moment and capturing the glow, confidence, and love that define motherhood.
💫 I recommend scheduling your session between 32–37 weeks, when your bump is beautifully round and you’re still feeling comfortable enough to move and pose.
Let’s create something timeless — elegant, intimate, and uniquely you.
For bookings, DM me.
📸 Photographer: Alexandra
#fyeoportraits #boudoir #mum2be #marlow
#MaternityBoudoir #PregnancyPhotography #MotherhoodJourney #BoudoirByAlexandra #PregnancyGlow #MaternityPhotoshoot #BodyPositivity #EmpoweredMotherhood
➡️ How to book a boudoir photoshoot with me at FOR YOUR EYES ONLY PORTRAITS.
➡️ How to book a boudoir photoshoot with me at FOR YOUR EYES ONLY PORTRAITS.
✨ Ready to feel amazing in your own skin? ✨
At For Your Eyes Only Portraits, booking your dream photo shoot is as easy as clicking Book a Shoot on our website. 💻
Whether it’s a solo session, a couple’s experience, or a best-friends shoot — we’ll guide you through every flattering pose under our signature skin-breathing light. 💕
Add some fun with rose petals, a makeover, or a touch of body oil — and walk away with a stunning collection of portraits that celebrate you.
💳 Pay your way — with credit card, Clearpay, or Klarna — and spread the cost over time.
Because you deserve to feel confident, sexy, and unstoppable. 💃
📸 Book now and let’s create something gorgeous together → link in bio
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⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Fabulous Sue joined me for a publicity boudoir photo shoot.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Fabulous Sue joined me for a publicity boudoir photo shoot. Here’s Sue in her favourite PVC outfit 🥰!
Just like with Sue, I’ll direct you and demonstrate how to get into each pose.
It’s great fun and quite physical… you may well burn up a few hundred calories in your photoshoot, a little bit like yoga meets twister! 🚀 lifting, arching, twisting all in your own safe space here at FOR YOUR EYES ONLY PORTRAITS… music playing and warm!!
It’s great fun!
➡️ Have you tried it? Xx
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✨ Bridal Boudoir Magic ✨ Looking for the ultimate wedding gift for your fiancé? 💍 Step into your wedding lingerie and let me guide you through flattering, artistic poses that celebrate you — your confidence, your beauty, your love story.
✨ Bridal Boudoir Magic ✨
Looking for the ultimate wedding gift for your fiancé? 💍
Step into your wedding lingerie and let me guide you through flattering, artistic poses that celebrate you — your confidence, your beauty, your love story.
📸 Imagine this: You leave a little note with your photos the night before the wedding that says…
💌 “Meet me at the altar.”
Trust me — they’ll be skipping down the aisle! 💫
👰♀️ Download my Boudoir Bride Posing Guide to discover new shapes that flatter your body and capture your most radiant self. Let’s create something unforgettable together.
Alexandra xx
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