In 2023, I did something that scared the absolute life out of me — I self-published my own boudoir photography book.
In 2023, I did something that scared the absolute life out of me —
I self-published my own boudoir photography book.
To this day, it’s the work I’m most proud of.
But I’ve never really shared what it actually meant to make it happen — or how much it changed me.
At the time, I had zero confidence in my career. Everything felt uncertain.
After Covid — and a lot of personal change — my creative path had taken a complete handbrake turn.
I needed to pause, to reflect, to figure out where I’d come from and what my art had become.
That reflection turned into ‘The Queen of Boudoir’.
Launch day.
I opened the first box of books from the printer with shaking hands… and cried.
Happy tears. Grateful tears. Relief. Pride.
Because I knew exactly what it had cost me to get there.
Years, decades of work.
Months of 5 a.m. starts.
Thousands of photo edits.
Laying out the entire book myself — in design software I’d never touched before.
And then there was navigating Amazon’s publishing hurdles for a global eBook — a tedious, stressful nightmare that nearly broke me! 😅
But I was determined, because I had a dream.
Looking back now, I’m proud for taking that wild, terrifying leap of faith —
for believing so fiercely in something no one else could see yet.
‘THE QUEEN OF BOUDOIR’ changed everything for me.
It wasn’t just a creative project.
It gave me something far more powerful:
Confidence.
Confidence to stand on my own as an independent artist.
No publisher. No gallery. No middlemen.
Just me — connecting directly with my tribe.
If you’re an artist feeling disheartened right now, please hear me:
We are living in a time where you have the power.
You don’t need permission.
You can build your own audience, your own path, your own legacy.
Take risks on yourself.
They do pay off.
📣Friends, I only have 8 printed copies of The Queen of Boudoir left.
Once they’re gone — that’s it. No reprints.
If you’d like one of the final signed copies (UK only) 💌
👉 DM me now — first come, first served.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for supporting me & believing in my art.
Alexandra xx
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